Serendipity

    今天拿到了剧本，以下是之前试镜时候独白的段子。一个月前生病，咳嗽咳得厉害，不过还是撑着去参加了今年新生话剧表演的audition。在门外等的时候咳到堵住嘴堵住气好阻止楼层地震，不过audition的时候出了声音有点哑并没有影响发挥, 虽然vagina的音当时好像没发对。

G3: I am sick of this!

B3: I don’t need you telling me –

G3: How to act

B3: How to talk

G3: How to look

BOTH: I am not bound my cultural stereotypes

G3: I am tired of living according to

B3: Magazine cutouts of perfect bodies

G3: 1950s ideals of femininity

B3: Fabio distortions of masculinity.

G3: I am tired of being told

B3: To admire television and movie stars for their beauty

G3: While hating my own reflection. To base my values upon

B3: Generalizations and sexists definitions of what it means

G3: To be a man

B3: To be a woman

G3: I will not be shoved in a box

B3: or be put in a cage defined by whether

G3: my genitalia includes a vagina

B3: or a penis.

G3: Don’t believe what your TV,

B3: your radio, your newspaper tell you

G3: it’s a lie.

B3: Gender lies in your mind

G3: Not just in your body.

B3: it’s something that you develop

G3: as well as something you are born with.

B3: My gender is sacred, it is something

G3: that doesn’t belong to my parents, doesn’t belong

B3: to my teachers, my friends and especially not to my society.

G3: My gender doesn’t even belong to you

B3: Just like my body, my thoughts and my dreams

G3: They all belong to me and when I meet someone I want to

B3: kiss

G3: love

B3: marry

G3: bang

B3: sing to

G3: Well, then…

B4: Then we’ll just talk it out –

BOTH: together

    学年中看过几出剧，大多实验小剧场，演得都很棒。一直很想上theatre的课,想学表演，想成为舞台上的一部分淋漓尽致地人格分裂。总想起06年夏天草地上Adam带领的Freeze游戏，我是玩得最high的之一，加勒比海盗手术师打仗偷窥一圈人想到啥演啥，很过瘾。在Entrepreneurship Symposium上碰到的校友Merrill 是English Theatre 双专业，联系学业事业，卓越的写作表达能力和舞台表现到处受用。

    这次最好学点beat box 和rap, 那两个晚上疯一把。

今夏计划（经过许多纠结后）初定如下：

5.19 克里夫兰出发经芝加哥直飞至上海，20日到达

5.20-7.5 见家人朋友，可能做个短实习，或者就跟各行业的人聊聊吧，坐办公室也未必产量高，何况以前就个小屁孩很多事不懂，现在能听懂能多点，对大家做什么和自己的路怎么走也很有兴趣。希望能和爸妈出去旅游一趟，感谢老爸早早表意慷慨出资。有些人要准备好，我回来要找你说三天三夜的话=D

7.6 上海飞比利时布鲁塞尔

7.7-8.15 Oberlin in Europe Summer Program, 一个教授带队，和欧洲研究中心合作的还有别的学校学生参与的Summer school, 驻扎在荷兰最古老城市马斯特里赫特，在马斯特里赫特大学和几个各方汇集的教授学两门课六个星期拿六个学分。在历史著名马斯特里赫特协议签署地学习欧洲历史文化和欧盟经济体系，每天课时外的一些时间和每周四五六三天周末打算与同行朋友好好计划把荷兰和几十分钟车程外的比利时和德国玩一下，还有法国和意大利，也许奥地利希腊。最近休息的时候猛看穷游网（www.go2eu.com)大虾们的游记，恳请有相关经历者推荐各种知识！（到时有谁也在欧洲吗？）

8.15 比利时飞上海

8.18 上海回美国，开始已经迟到了的Resident Assistant (House President, Proctor...)培训，主持新生orientation和下一年中宿舍文化各种活动，相当期待，应该会蛮好玩。

之前决定夏天做什么就做了不少考量，然后订机票又痛苦了一番，kayak等网站路线搜索不知打了多少次查，和一众中介旅行社过招数回又定不下来。由于时间吃紧想买三程的机票，巨麻烦，但当时还真看到了包括我夏天这三趟的全程只要一千四百多刀的便宜票，从这个范围直到三千多的都是跟意大利航空Alitalia，路线相当精彩，克里夫兰到佐治亚到米兰到上海到米兰到布鲁塞尔到佐治亚到克里夫兰，差一个洋就绕地球一周。结果当时对各国申根签证了解不清，听一辰同学去英国不知经加拿大转机都需要签证当场吐血重买直飞票的经历之后我相当谨慎，问Alitalia的人我中国护照转机需不需要签证，那人说要，结果按机票就搁着没买过了几天我调查清楚其实不要，它居然涨了一倍，打电话去问情况，一个意大利口音浓重的女人吊了我四十分钟，结果居然是查不到网络上明明有显示的票源，说这是两个系统，让我对这家公司打大感怀疑。之后网上搜索，了解到它近年亏欠亏得厉害，法航一度想收购投钱，前阵子又告吹，风评很差，投诉延误掉行李的很多。又一起掉行李的兄弟一怒之下开了个叫Alitaliasucks（意航烂透鸟）的网站，专门收集同乘者的郁闷经历... 于是我心想罢罢，不贪便宜找个安心吧。不过就那四天乘飞机绕地球转会累一些了。

前几日才感到归家的临近，去了很久没有光顾的大众点评网，顿时一股熟悉的气息袭来... 同学们我们到时好好聚一下，顺便说一句，我已经九个月没有唱K十个月没有打过80分了!! 到时候要顿顿吃非常上海非常亚洲的东西，谁敢提议去萨莉亚必胜客之类的我跟谁急。

只要活过考试paper，我胡汉三要回来了！

我上周在校内从朋友那顺转了一篇包含了这段录像的日志，这段来源不是很明朗的纪录片中一位外国老人做旁白简要的解释了西藏的历史。当时看他讲得心平气和，觉得比之前网上广为流传的另一段（以前是现在是将来依然是）来的好，因为以暴制暴，用“F**k off"的口吻就算讲得是明理也不见得有效。顺手又贴到了Facebook上，连同众多海外学子使用的火炬头像一起。

  过了几天，在图书馆的一个下午发现facebook message box里躺着这样一条长消息：

"There was a lot wrong historically with the documentary that you posted so I've compiled a list of some of the things he messed up on.
What he failed to mention & facts that don't pan out:
1. Even though the maps were drawn "as far as the 13th century", Tibet was essentially a self-governing region and after the fall of the Qing until the Great Leap Forward it was its own country that was recognized by many Western countries, which is why the perception persists that Tibet deserves its own independence.
2. The histories of the spread of Buddhism in Tibet seem far to vague to say that Buddhism tried to suppress Bön. It's unclear whether Buddhism "suppressed Bön" or people simply lost interest in Bön. Likely both happened.
3. The fact that the first thing that you see under the words "cast system" is people performing supplications is inflammatory and really bad documentary making.
4. Yes, Tibet had slaves and serfs, as did China.
5. I want his source on the "valuations of castes" thing. It seems somewhat bogus.
6. The guy blames China's downfall on solely on the West. This is a vicious half-truth. The arrogance of the Qing dynasty and the "Confucianist" economic structure had a lot to do with it as well.
7. The Opium Wars were disgusting, yes, but to suggest that they were the worst tragedy to ever befall mankind seems naive at best. How about the international slave trade, the famine during the Great Leap Forward (the worst famine known to man), the rape of Nanjing, the dropping of the A-bombs, the holocaust, the Armenian Genocide etc.
8. The population thing just doesn't pan out. He must be glossing over the Great Leap Forward which killed 14-43 million and blaming it on Western Imperialism.
(If you don't believe me, talk to Blecher)
10. His post-Qing history is completely wrong from the location of the capital in 1912 (of which there was none). He also says nothing of the short rule of the KMT and it's opinion of Tibet, which would be important in any chronological historical analysis.

Conclusion: The west tends to use China as its whipping boy. It's easy to attack it given its history of human rights abuses, etc. However, the west also rarely looks at its own human rights abuses and in many cases cannot given the massive conflicts of interest fostered by the ownership of the entire American media by 6 corporations. However, the same conflicts of interest when all media and education are managed with extremely little leeway by a state. This documentary is so riddled with error that its fundamental message is jaded by these errors. I wouldn't be surprised if this video actually came from the propaganda division of the PRC government. If so, it would not be the place to seek truth. The place to seek truth would to actually research the issue given the vast amounts of scholarship on it and come to a conclusion that gives a respectful amount of weight to both sides. "

我的一个美国朋友Josh冷静辩证地用他所了解学到的史实指出了录像中的10点争议之处，之后他的结论是(拙译一下）：“西方社会很容易就人权问题的历史攻击中国，却很少审视自己的人权侵害问题-事实上因为巨大的利益纠纷，很多时候由六大集团组成的美国媒体也不可能做到。漏洞百出使这部纪录片所传达的信息受损。有可能也是政府所指使特制的宣传片，果真的话这也不是寻求真相之所在。只有通过研究大量文献才能得到给予事情两面充分尊重的结论。”

Josh正在上第二学期的中文课，并不流利但理解力很强。平时只当他是学校对亚洲文化感兴趣的大众之一，甚至都没意识到他是深入了解且肯钻研的大众之一（很多东亚研究的同学对中国了解之深时常让我觉得不如）我在楞了一会之后立即回了他的信息，感谢他的理智客观的心态和分析（当时CNN，BBC偏颇报道最是满天飞，解释说之前毫不犹豫地转贴很大程度是因为片尾的旁白：

It is very sad that once again, outside powers are trying to discredit and embarrass China. Especially in the year of 2008 Beijing Olymipics, we should refrain from passing unfair and unjust judgements. The Chinese are joyfully preparing for the Olympic Games in peace and harmony. We must not muddy the Olymipic Games with political intrigue. We should honor the wisdom of Confucious: don't do to others what you do not want them to do to you. Study history, not the media. The truth is not to be found in a television broadcast.

令人遗憾的是外界又一次地试图使中国蒙羞。尤其在2008北京奥运年，中国人民们正欢欣鼓舞地迎接奥运我，们应当停止不公地审判。我们不应该让政治玷污了奥林匹克。我们应当遵循孔子的箴言“己所不欲勿施于人”。学习历史，而不是盲从媒体。真相不在电视报道中。

Josh继续回说：

I don't know. I really think that countries calling each other out on each other's mistakes is a really good thing, however It often gets ridiculous (i.e. freedom fries). The Olympic Games are by nature political. I just hope they go well for China. I'm sure they will, honestly. Journalists will be awed by Beijing once they get there.
I also find it really sad that the truth is not to be found in a television broadcast. In US political theory, the frequencies at which television stations broadcast in the US is nominally owned by the people, (in practice it's owned by corporations). So, I find it really sad that information broadcast through my metaphorical backyard isn't truthful.

我真的觉得大国互相挑错不是件好事，这通常荒唐得很。奥运会究其本质还是政治。我只希望中国能办得好，我相信一定会的，记者们一到北京就会被她所震撼折服的。我也对真相不存在报道中感到遗憾。在美国政治理论上是民众主宰，其实电视台由集团掌控。所以我也真的觉得很遗憾我们自己后院里报道的信息并不真实。

记得某日午饭田学长热血沸腾的说怎么没有老外找他理论，这里是哪啊，这可是第一所招收黑人大学生，女性大学生，第一个发出反越战之声的著名激进自由的大学啊。于是我想，兴许是身边这样明辨的学生占了多数，那倒真是好事，最直接的身边没有ZD团体的任何叫嚣。但很能理解火炬传递时在英法等国同胞的心情，最近各方报道评论追看了很多，杜克WQY事件到抵制法货...（说到这还是推荐理智，请见傅真和韩寒博文）

最希望的还是通过这些事，能够更大程度的促进了解，培养历史认识很客观态度，然后把当今的一些议题解决好。